age old cliche

2001-07-21 @ 11:28 p.m.

even when you are running away, you need somewhere, something to run to.

i think i have found it, the something, the somewhere, the someone. she is the most beautiful woman in the world. only i don't think she knows it.

tomorrow i go to stay with my parents. being away from her makes me nervous. on monday we will meet up again and she will meet my folks, we will have dinner.

today when we walked through town i was increasingly aware of the restrictions on our relationship. i don't personally think it is wrong that people show affection in public, although some people may do. J and i cannot do that. as a same sex couple we cannot hold hands without inquiring or awkward glances. we must think twice before touching each other, edit our conversation, minimise the body language that gives us away.

at least at home we are a little less conspicuous, people more tolerant, more used to gay couples wandering the streets. here they are not. our short hair is enough of a talking point. we are a moving target. i have felt such unacceptance and prejudgdice before, but rarely this accutely. it bothers me.

age old cliche, i know...