illicit desire

monday 20th august @ 11:54 p.m.

such intense overwhelming feeling. it's great to feel so much. pain, fear, apprehension, adrenaline, arousal, the illicit desire that comes with enjoying such bodily sensations. a disturbing but addictive high. all this from a nipple piercing. i can now appreciate why people go back for more. i am so glad i did this. (davey-yes it did hurt! but that was mainly from the clamp!). the ache in my left breast reminds me of the experience.

i feel alive.

i am reminded of my own mortality and strive to sense, to percieve, to be so many things. more than to just see, or do, but to endure, discover, flourish. to own.