lie to me

2001-09-10 @ 21:30

so tired i'm hallucinating bugs all over the room. or maybe there really are bugs all over the room. i feel like crying but i can't seem the bring the emotion close enough to the surface. close enough to feel it. it sinks deeper into my soul and leaves me numb. i'm not sure if it's worse to feel the pain or feel nothing. i'm not ready to give up but lack the strength and insight to move forward. i don't know where to go from here.

Don't tell me the truth, i don't think i do can do truth right now. tell me stories with happy endings. i'm not ready to face the truth.