it's over now

thursday 27th september @ 00:27

hindsight is a wonderful thing they say. truth is, we all know the consequences of our actions before we need to reflect. we weigh up the pros and cons, write lists and take long walks with our thoughts to try to determine our futures before they happen.

i knew long ago that we would lose each other. i knew not how or why. i knew when we first met that i shouldn't tell her how i loved her. so for a long while i didn't. until one night when it all changed. i couldn't keep it from her any longer. she had to know how i felt. i knew the risks. i knew the risks when i opened my heart years later. i knew the risks when she mirrored my love with the light of a thousand stars. i knew the risks the first time we kissed, the first night we curled up together, the last night we spent apart. i knew then i'd break it, we'd lose it all.

perhaps i should have resisted, the feelings, the words, the kisses.

but i did not. this history is frozen. it's over now.