always there

friday 10th may 2002 @ 19:22

i love to see you smile. i adore watching you, not looking at me. i breathe for the times you close your arms around me. you say you feel worthless. and it's my turn to open my arms to you. the time we share is precious and so valuable. and we need each other more than we could admit to ourselves. we remain invisible to ourselves, to each other. to everyone. mutually misunderstood. and searching.

reading: shadowland by peter straub

hearing: bad english

wanting: to love myself enough

fearing: fear itself