bored sick

friday 17th january 2003 @ 19:48

holed up. and getting desperate. a blood test may reveal the cause of continued sickness. i always took for granted my huge appetite and ability to resolve hunger. and now my shape thins when i need warm curves, i read persistantly to stay occupied. and i'm getting restless without social contact and sleeping far too much.

reading: shakespeare, strangers in paradise, murakami, winterson

hearing: 24 hr tv on low

wanting: is it too much to ask to not be sick anymore?

fearing: i don't want to think about that