apparently i am maintaining some self respect for the right reasons

friday 17th january 2003 @ 23:07

apparently when you think of me at 3am i am supposed to be flattered. it's not the first time you pictured me lying there with you and nothing between us. and you are not the only one. i know because they tell me under pressure to sign. apparently i am a suitable choice for sexual gratification, a trophy or token. apparently that means that i can do friendship and loyalty and all the cosy details but not relationships. so they say. maybe it's not me that has the problem with commitment. maybe it's them. you think?