Eight years

Friday, Jun. 24, 2011 @ 20:56

So here I am again. Struggling and desperate. Crying and reeling. How many more times must I feel so let down, so disappointed, so betrayed before I do something to save myself? and how much must I sacrifice to find the peace I deserve?
I could write more lists of all the things I want, the things I have, the things I need to shed. But for what. These lists only serve to torture me with indecision and fear.
I hate what my life has become. Eight years of this is long enough.