pros and cons

monday 7th february 2005 @ 21:52

when my dreams are violent and extortionate my days are long and empty. i lack vision and space but the walls close in too fast. my sight is blurred and my fingers shake. i no longer know if it is the pills that do this. but every morning another floats over my tongue and i take the consequences of my swallow. is it worse to sleep and live in nightmares or to drag and swing through a sleepless grey life without colour?