circle of protection

thursday 10th january 2002 @ 22:28

there is a settling of dust in here tonight. my rapid pulse is thready and fakes a physical calm. one blistering hot bath later and my brain is filled with non-erotic steam and lulls me to my bed. another night with you tomorrow that should be avoided if only to prevent another heartache. i will go and try to maintain a separate space where you cannot enter. a soft and gentle sphere around me to protect me from your incidental attacks. and i will glance at you when i think you won't notice. or maybe i'll stare too long.

reading: heading inland by nicola barker

hearing: sinead lohan, don henley, kid rock, linkin park

wanting: a good nights sleep before my early shift tomorrow

fearing: i don't want to be scared anymore