shrink to fit

friday 5th july 2002 @ 22:50

we drank tea, though i know you prefer coffee. we talked romeo and juliet, though i know you avoid men. we browsed the gallery, though i know you prefer shopping. i am holding onto myself. i'm not sure you are.

i would ask you not to compromise too much, but you are young and will make mistakes that you will remember later.

i am flattered by this tailoring of your heart to fit. but in my wake i fear you will lose yourself and then only resent me for stealing away your identity. only i didn't steal it, you were still trying to find it in faces and places. and now you are trying to share mine.

if you were alone, how would you be? what music plays into the night? what colour do you wear? are your nails short or long? don't forget. don't hide. don't pretend. that will never work in the end.