missing my own smile

Monday, Jan. 02, 2006 @ 00:30

Happy New Year...

the whole new year celebrations passed me by, another day dawns and it feels no different to the last. it's all lost on me. sleep evaded me last night. i stayed up til midnight with the boyfriend to see in the new year and broke up the party early and to bed before my early start at work. 4.30 am and still fighting my demons and no sleep. i guess i dropped off sometime after as my alarm woke me at 6 am to a panic. i'm not sure how i made it to and through work, but i did and survive to see another day. i'm down but i'm hoping that when the pills wear off at last i'll feel strong and bright. i miss my own smile.