a regret that led to a mirage

Friday, May. 09, 2008 @ 22:24

i saw a girl today, just a glance. i could not stop the flood of memories that rushed towards me and up from the pavement. it was not you. but the just the potential nearly froze me. i often dream of you when i long for something different or for something warm and familiar. something loving.
(do you remember the day i dropped my coat on the pier at the sight of you and ran into your arms?)
maybe that is why you were there today; an hallucination, a mirage?
i don't remember if i told you i loved you. maybe i still do. or maybe i'm just looking for somewhere safe to be.
i just know i'm tired of being here. on the edge of this life. without you.
i'm sorry i let you go.